life.

Smoked up today, the problem with me smoking is once i sober up i feel shit, my problems are all i think about and how i can just be normal.

6 days till birthday.. in all honesty thats the only thing keeping me from slitting my wrist. i want to celebrate my 17th, then whatever.

I saw a good mate today. always been so lovely to me... always liked me too, but i can't do relationships right now, and he barely knows me.. he treats me like gold. absolute gold. but wants again i know im not good enough for anyone and besides, he'll leave like everyone else anyway. i am too much for people to handle. i should stop being so selfish and become a hermit.

haven't cut in a while... i'm tempted but i don't think i would know when to stop.