What i know for now

Helping out a homeless man, it's causing me so much anxiety, how can society let someone just stay on the streets when we have warm rooms and beds in this ward? its practically empty while others are left to freeze.

I will never like, nor agree with society and i really don't see why anyone would want to live in the world.

Then theres him. He does everything for everyone, he lives his painful life to give, and give, and give. Until he has no more to give. So i will give to him. i will help him, stay strong, healthy and happy because quite frankly he's one of the very few in this society i do like.

I have an endless fascination for him and he is forever unreadeble, but i know enough.

I'm here for him.

He just understands me & i understand him. I wrote my feelings to him, but i don't think he understands how serious i'm being.

so excited for my birthday

i normally hate my birthday , but this years so different! my parents are making such a fuss of me and all my friends are gonna celebrate it with me! and i'm getting my P's and life is getting so good all of a sudden!

i am so incredibly happy.

Back to the old me!

omg. that 2 weeks of utter depression was a nightmare but thank the lord it is gooooooooone! i'm happy and motivated and life is looking beautiful and omg so many things to look forward too!! <3

I'm getting a job, going back to school, getting my horse next year, celebrating my birthday with all my friends have been supporting me like crazy, even the ones i least expected.

Tackling my route problems in therapy and i'm excited, i'm determined to overcome them!

I JUST WANNA HI-FIVE EVERYONE.

i got this :) peace ya'll

can't wait to be chucked into hospital for months and stop talking to everyone and refuse my meds and waste away.

life.

Smoked up today, the problem with me smoking is once i sober up i feel shit, my problems are all i think about and how i can just be normal.

6 days till birthday.. in all honesty thats the only thing keeping me from slitting my wrist. i want to celebrate my 17th, then whatever.

I saw a good mate today. always been so lovely to me... always liked me too, but i can't do relationships right now, and he barely knows me.. he treats me like gold. absolute gold. but wants again i know im not good enough for anyone and besides, he'll leave like everyone else anyway. i am too much for people to handle. i should stop being so selfish and become a hermit.

haven't cut in a while... i'm tempted but i don't think i would know when to stop.

Trying to get my life back on track

step 1. watch othello the movie, i can do that! i mean how can i possibly stuff something like that up?

i want to be happy and i am determined to find happiness.